I Will Rise

“Jesus didn’t come to get you out of this life. He came to live in you through it.”

It was a simple statement, no radical new theology, and yet these words from a humble, godly counselor, Dr. Frank Gripka, altered the trajectory of my life. All I could see was the rubble at my feet; he helped me see that Christ was with me in the rubble. Christ, present in the ruins.
I had just spent a month in a psychiatric hospital, being treated for severe clinical depression, not an illness with much curb appeal in the Evangelical Church.
As the former co-host of the daily news, commentary and ministry show, The 700 Club, I believed I was a failure, a disappointment and an embarrassment. My plan was to quietly disappear and wait for Christ to take me home. I knew there would be no “Well done, good and faithful servant” greeting, but at least the pain and the struggle would be over.
My discharge papers from the hospital indicated that I should touch base with a local counselor. I didn’t want to do that. I was having a very hard time making eye contact with anyone, as the weight of shame I carried was a crushing beast with a convincing script. I believed everything it said.
You don’t belong
You let people down
You are weak
You are a liability
You are intrinsically flawed
Those words clung to my life like ravenous parasites. I’m amazed now that I lived for so long with such faulty theology. But I did and many do.
Dr. Gripka’s words carried the beginning notes of a song of grace that changed everything.
Though I was ashamed of myself, Christ was not ashamed to own me. The very thing that I thought disqualified me from ministry became the very connection that led me to thousands of others who were living by the same toxic script of shame. My brokenness was a far greater bridge to others than pretend-wholeness ever was.
The grace-filled bottom line is this: we’re not the good news, Jesus is! When we fall on our faces before Him and admit our need, we discover the beauty of redemption; for I have seen what God will do with a broken life if you give Him all the pieces. Our strength will never lie in our own ability but in our relentless trust in Christ to live and love through us.
I don’t know what the year 2015 was like for you. I know it was a rough year for many, my family included. But now we stand on the threshold of a brand New Year, a year that will be pivotal in our nation’s history.
So how then shall we live?
Will we retreat into the quiet and wait for Christ to rescue us, or will we rise up and live like the beautiful Body of Christ we are called to be?
We can’t convince anyone of the life-changing power of Christ, but the Holy Spirit can.
We can’t change the course of our nation’s history, but Christ can.
Perhaps as you look at your life at the end of the past year you feel defeated, ashamed and powerless. I understand, but let me remind you of Christ’s words to a man who had spent most of his life lying by the side of a pool waiting for someone to rescue him, “Do you want to be made well?” (John 5:6)
It’s time for us to rise up and live!
It’s time to live what we say we believe.
What would it look like if all across our nation, around the world and in every little town and village, those who claim the name of Christ began to rise up and live as people not bound by their past but compelled by their glorious future?
It would change the history of the world!
It would usher in the return of Christ.
For me … I’m all in. In his name I declare, I will rise!

3 thoughts on “I Will Rise

  1. Dearest Shiela I got from life today at the end of Febuary 2017 the message of the month. WOW! awsome message. I play it over and over again and can’t stop earing your words. You blow the soaks off any Pastor out there you truly do. My life from conseption to now 65 ….well lets say the youngest of 3 and only girl my father left when I was about 2. I had they say the worst task masters a person could ever have. Yes deppresion is real and my mother got the letter I was severly deppresed by 1959.My brain gives me no joy I cry a lot. She of course because of her mental disfuntion burnt that letter faster then saying 1. I was never helped. Yes lots and lots has happened to me and now I want the Lord to help direct my path. What where does he want me to do or go. I have to have hope and wait for an answer. BUT thank you so much for your beautiful heart for as you say in this broken world. Please keep on ministering to us all. You are a awsome person in Christ. Thank You so much.

  2. Oh Sheila. So well said. And so right on to my walk. I’m all in – now. I, like you, had to walk the path and come to some realizations but thankfully, here I am. All in.

  3. WOW!!! Now I know why I was drawn to seek you out further after studying you with my ladies bible study group. You are incredible, I wish I could be as strong and open.

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